Honestly, I don't see any sense in saying anything to her about it. She was the one who betrayed me. I did nothing wrong. I don't get what she sees in Brambleclaw. He is the son of the freaking evilest warrior ever lived. Well, almost. I shudder as I think of Scourge. I flex my white claws as I picture that son of a fox Bone ripping the life out of my father, Whitestorm, then Tigerclaw murdering my mother to use as bait. Brambleclaw's father. I realize with a shocking twist of pain. I look up at the sky to see if Starclan still see me, only to find clouds cloaking the sky in mysterious shades of gray. Sighing, I stop my search for the stars.
Maybe it will all be over soon.I think as I slink up the hill that led to the shore of the lake. I stop in my tracks, picking up two familiar scents. Squirrelflight. I pulled my lips over my teeth. That fox-hearted coward. I don't need to check the other scent- it was obvious. I peek out over the hilltop to spot the two rats on the shore, tails twined together. I feel like vomiting. Squirrelflight pushes her head under Brambleclaw's chin. I prick my ears and hear rattling purrs. My claws slide out, like razor blades. Brambleclaw leans in toward Squirrelflight and licks her ears. I can't watch anymore. I just can't. </P>
I turn around and whip into the forest, ignoring the burning in my lungs as I hold my breath. Maybe I'll wake up and Squirrelflight will be beside me. Brambleclaw will never have been between my claws. Maybe we would still even be friends.
I stop my fantasizing, along with my pumping legs. I sit on the edge of the land, where it drops to the river. I curl my tail over my tail over my paws, staring down at the water. Again, the thought of it all being over pulsed through my head. There is no stopping the hurt look that gathers in my eyes. Maybe there is a way to never come back. I could escape no. I firmly shake myself.
I gaze down at the water, running freely among the stones. It mesmerizes me so much that I find myself lying here for hours until the sun peeked over the horizon. I hauled myself up and made my way slowly to camp. I smelled a musty, smoky scent. Like a monster, except stronger and painful to breathe in. As soon as I realize it, a herd of appentices whiz by me, screaming.